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lettinggo[Lacie is seated at the desk in the room she shares with Jack. He's out for the time being because Lacie asked him to grab something to eat and she really doesn't feel like walking about. She's writing in a journal she just found.]
I arrived at the mansion. It's quite a peculiar place. Not to mention even being alive right now is peculiar. Because I should be dead. I should not be here. In fact I should be embraced within the sweet arms of death. Yet here I am alive and well. Carrying the life inside of me. Though in my opinion I have a strong feeling that I am carrying twins instead of just one bundle because there's so much movement. So far I have ran into Glen, Jack, and Alice. Glen also informed me that Ozwald is here. Now that I am alive again, I have decided to give this friendship thing and try. I've decided that Jack is now my best friend instead of us simply being mere acquaintances. Now that we have all the time in the world to spend together, I'm not afraid to actually be friends with him.
I stumbled across this journal and since it was empty, I've decided to claim it as my own. My own little diary to keep and reflect back upon. Before this, I've never thought about keeping a journal or anything of the like because I already knew where my life was headed. It was going to reach an early end and should have back when I was tossed into the Abyss. But I suppose fate had other plans in store for me.
I feel very fortunate to be given a second chance to live. Carrying the lives inside of me as I face this brand new world. All of this is quite similar to an adventure one would read inside of a storybook. I never thought something like this would or could ever happen to me. I can remember the look in Ozwald's eyes on that one day. They held uncertainty. Pain and anguish as he placed his hand upon my head and sent me on my way. It's not as though he had a choice in the matter even if he wanted to protest against taking my life. He didn't have a choice. None of us did. If he would have voiced what he was feeling, if he were to go against Glen, he would have faced severe consequences. I didn't want anything happening to him. I didn't want him to suffer. So instead I gave him a smile. It was not his fault and even so I'm wary of how things will go if I happen to run into him here.
Will he be upset with me? Will he despise me for still being alive now that he has taken the title of Glen? Because Glen's plans have indeed been ruined. These children will not be born in the Abyss. Not if I can help it. No one should be sent to such a place nor forced to stay there. It's a wicked cold land. An endless void of nothing cloaked in pure darkness. No one deserves to be sent to such a realm. I will not go back there. Nor will these children. Because they are my responsibility now. I may not be the greatest mother, but I will try my best. I'll give them the life they deserve instead of forcing them into a prison. To be able to run around freely and have fun. A beautiful life. It's what I've always wanted and since that was robbed of me in my childhood, I will try even harder to see that I give them what I missed.
I also cannot help but feel a sense of guilt because if I was not here, they would have been birthed by the Abyss. They would have probably been oh so lonely within that domain. Everyone needs the company of others and also love. To deny them that right would make me a wretched person. I care not about whatever experiment Glen wants now. I've grown far too attached to these children even though I have yet to meet them. Even though I haven't seen them face to face yet, this feels so right. This feels like a dream come true. Jack even said he would help me with taking care of them because we both know Glen probably won't want anything to do with them. That's what I think anyways.
I'm thankful for having Jack as a friend. I'm not afraid to show him my true feelings anymore. The friendship that I once wanted but to afraid to grasp, I've taken hold and I'm not letting go.
[A thoughtful smile as she closes the journal and sets it aside.]
[ooc: for the phdr verse. Action tags can be done in this. If anyone wishes to drop by and say hello they may.]
I arrived at the mansion. It's quite a peculiar place. Not to mention even being alive right now is peculiar. Because I should be dead. I should not be here. In fact I should be embraced within the sweet arms of death. Yet here I am alive and well. Carrying the life inside of me. Though in my opinion I have a strong feeling that I am carrying twins instead of just one bundle because there's so much movement. So far I have ran into Glen, Jack, and Alice. Glen also informed me that Ozwald is here. Now that I am alive again, I have decided to give this friendship thing and try. I've decided that Jack is now my best friend instead of us simply being mere acquaintances. Now that we have all the time in the world to spend together, I'm not afraid to actually be friends with him.
I stumbled across this journal and since it was empty, I've decided to claim it as my own. My own little diary to keep and reflect back upon. Before this, I've never thought about keeping a journal or anything of the like because I already knew where my life was headed. It was going to reach an early end and should have back when I was tossed into the Abyss. But I suppose fate had other plans in store for me.
I feel very fortunate to be given a second chance to live. Carrying the lives inside of me as I face this brand new world. All of this is quite similar to an adventure one would read inside of a storybook. I never thought something like this would or could ever happen to me. I can remember the look in Ozwald's eyes on that one day. They held uncertainty. Pain and anguish as he placed his hand upon my head and sent me on my way. It's not as though he had a choice in the matter even if he wanted to protest against taking my life. He didn't have a choice. None of us did. If he would have voiced what he was feeling, if he were to go against Glen, he would have faced severe consequences. I didn't want anything happening to him. I didn't want him to suffer. So instead I gave him a smile. It was not his fault and even so I'm wary of how things will go if I happen to run into him here.
Will he be upset with me? Will he despise me for still being alive now that he has taken the title of Glen? Because Glen's plans have indeed been ruined. These children will not be born in the Abyss. Not if I can help it. No one should be sent to such a place nor forced to stay there. It's a wicked cold land. An endless void of nothing cloaked in pure darkness. No one deserves to be sent to such a realm. I will not go back there. Nor will these children. Because they are my responsibility now. I may not be the greatest mother, but I will try my best. I'll give them the life they deserve instead of forcing them into a prison. To be able to run around freely and have fun. A beautiful life. It's what I've always wanted and since that was robbed of me in my childhood, I will try even harder to see that I give them what I missed.
I also cannot help but feel a sense of guilt because if I was not here, they would have been birthed by the Abyss. They would have probably been oh so lonely within that domain. Everyone needs the company of others and also love. To deny them that right would make me a wretched person. I care not about whatever experiment Glen wants now. I've grown far too attached to these children even though I have yet to meet them. Even though I haven't seen them face to face yet, this feels so right. This feels like a dream come true. Jack even said he would help me with taking care of them because we both know Glen probably won't want anything to do with them. That's what I think anyways.
I'm thankful for having Jack as a friend. I'm not afraid to show him my true feelings anymore. The friendship that I once wanted but to afraid to grasp, I've taken hold and I'm not letting go.
[A thoughtful smile as she closes the journal and sets it aside.]
[ooc: for the phdr verse. Action tags can be done in this. If anyone wishes to drop by and say hello they may.]
